Wishful Thinking…

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acceptance, Grad School, Graduate Studies, Life

So here I am, anxiously awaiting the results of my acceptance or denial to my first choice Grad school… and hating it.

I thought submitting everything super early, and being proactive would be great … everything would be in and done, and ready to go and the weight would be off of my shoulders.  Boy, was I wrong.  I checked my status today, and they haven’t even processed my stuff yet.  The application due date isn’t until November 11th, which means I’ve got a little less than a month before they start even LOOKING at the applications.

As if my anxiety isn’t bad enough- now I have to sit on the edge of my chair, and continuously check my application status as if something is going to change and a the words “ACCEPTED FOR SPRING 2012″ will magically appear.

Wishful thinking.

This applying to Grad school stuff is rough.  I’ve been keeping myself busy; I got a job at a restaurant, I got licensed to become a Zumba instructor and I have an interview to be a part-time bank teller in 2 days… that should be enough to keep my mind off of my application status, right?

Wishful thinking.

All I want is to get into Grad school, get a great Graduate Assistantship, learn everything and more about the field I want to work in (now that I finally know what it is I want to do with the rest of my life), and create the foundation for a great future for myself.  All of that lies on this future acceptance letter (hopefully).  I keep telling myself that maybe they’ll look at it early and make an early (positive) decision…

Wishful thinking?

I guess we’ll see.

This is my life… In Progress

Testing Testing 1, 2, 3…

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anxiety, Grad School, Miller Analogy Test, standardized tests

Grad schools require you to take these tests in order to get in.  There are multiple types of tests, depending on what program you want to get your Masters in.  It’s kind of like the schools are saying, “Oh, hey.. you got your BA or BS, or whatever else you got, and you graduated .. but that’s not good enough.  Pay for this, do well, and then MAYBE we’ll consider you.” (Okay, I’m a little bitter because I hate them…)

The kicker to this is people tell you not to worry about it.. not to let the test psyche you out. For people like me, who aren’t great at standardized tests (never have been) … it’s hard not to psyche yourself out!

I had to take the Miller Analogy Test today (this is to this, as that is to that) Oy Vey.  This lovely test was the last step to applying to the grad school of my choice. Talk about intimidating. I studied for days.. no, weeks (months, dare I say?) .. on end for it. How was I not supposed to think about the fact that this could be the deciding factor that gets me accepted to (or denied from) grad school?!

The final results said I did an “average job” … and according to what the school of my choice wants, I should be fine.

But, of course … now I’m playing the waiting game. I have to wait & see if my test results are good enough for the school of my choice, and f they’re not I need to take it again (and again and again, until they ARE good enough). The anxiety should be over, right?  Wrong.  The test is done.. the application is in.. and I have no idea if I’m going to get in.

Argh. Everyone, keep your fingers crossed please.

This is my life…  In Progress.

A Revamped Blog, For A Revamped Lifestyle…

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Graduate School, Higher Education, Life, Miller Analogy Test, unemployed, Zumba

You grow up thinking life is going to go one way – and before you know it, it’s headed in a completely different direction.  My change of direction came from the unfortunate circumstance (so I thought) of being let go from my last job.  However, after really analyzing the situation, I’ve recently come to see it was nothing but a blessing in disguise.

This blog is now just like my life … REVAMPED. Previously social media and PR, and currently on the road to somewhere new.

You’re supposed to love what you do – not be miserable on a daily basis.  Sure, every day won’t be rainbows and sunshine – but what’s the point of working somewhere there’s NEVER rainbows and sunshine?  Life is too short to be miserable.

After losing my job, I wasn’t the happiest person on the face of the planet ( I mean, who would be?).  All I could think about was the lack of money to pay the bills, the lack of things to do during the day (I cannot sit in my house 24/7 – I am way too fidgety for that), OH .. and the pure fact that I was unemployed didn’t make things easier.  But, after 24 hours of feeling sorry for myself – I decided to take the negativity, get rid of it, and do something positive with my “time off”.

Ladies and gentlemen, I’m going back to school (well, I hope to be) for Higher Education: Administration. So many people, in that field, inspired me in college – and I’d like to be able to pass that on… so, I’m going to .

It still stinks to have no money – but, I’m working on some part-time opportunities at the moment … I don’t have to worry about sitting around the house and doing nothing, because I’m training to run a 5 mile run in November, I’m getting certified to teach Zumba on Sunday, and I’ve been filling out grad school applications and studying for the MATs.

Life is “in limbo” at the moment … some days are great, and others are terribly slow and boring – but, I’m lucky enough to have amazing people in my life to help me through those slow / boring days, and put a smile on my face.

It’s time to live my life how I see fit, and I’m going to work my butt off to get where I want to be.  I’m taking the negative aspects of the past year of my life and using them to push me to do bigger and better things.

This is my life … In Progress